Its my life...its now or never

Happy Birthday Dre

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 01:05:42 GMT

Tomorrow is my best friend dre's birthday..y'all better wish him a happy birthday
Seriously though..Dre you are my best friend and I love u soo much! You have been there for me through some pretty difficult times and I cant explain how much that means 2 me...You have listen to me bitch to you and you just listen and are always there for me to cry to You always make me laugh and I always have a good time when we are together...Koosh my kooshi what a kooshan I <3 u forever u know that!! **MUCH LOVE**
Aside from it being dre's birthday tomorrow...SATS are saturday and I have never been more scared of one test in my life..Lets pray for me to do well on the SATS so I can go to college next year...lol

A PRAYER FOR ME TO DO WELL ON THE SATS AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY DRE!

spring formal

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 05:11:50 GMT

to all my ladies of saturday nite...
u all made the night one of the best nights I have ever had....
lets re cap the evening...
Donna and I drove together(we were dates...lol) we looked hot.. we arrived @ Simis and all the girls(Melissa dani, simi, emma, me, donna, christine, her friend sarah, char, talia, lauren and her boyfriend, and andrea) took such cute pics together Then we hopped in the limo(that limo and the limo ride to school was such a kick ass time)We were all dancing and just being with the girls..We arrived @ semi formal and just started dancing
Spring Formal Court 04:Congratz to Lauren and Ben(Lauren u were hillarious when u won and u know why)
We all went to the limo @ around like 10:20 and we all made rea wait outside so he would see none of the girls changing...ahhh! we all looked so hot..we went to after party and danced on the way there
So much random shit happened @ that afterparty that it was too hot for livejournal...
Thanks simi for having all of us over...u were amazing!!!
Semi formal pics will soon be on my livejournal...
Sorry to anyone who ate the bad sushi(it suxed really bad...lol)!
A night to remember and will go down as one of the best nights all the girls had together...look out for semi formal pics soon!

sometimes

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 01:37:22 GMT

Mushu RIP forever(my poor little fishie from the purim carnival)...lol brittany dani simone and anyone else who knew my beloved mushu

sometimes you wish for things you cant have...
Sometimes you think someone likes you and they dont
Sometime you hope for situations that are impossible
You wish for everything to be perfect and it goes wrong..
Life isnt perfect and you just have to face the realities

heres a song:
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

and you had everything to lose

i have issues

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 02:11:25 GMT

ok..so its really been a long time since I have updated..so I will share some things that have been going on in my life...Steph saturday night was the best! Ok..so me and steph get our fine ass selves ready to go out..We go to teddy's house and reid shows up..he starts hitting on steph hardcore...wow! lol anyways...steph and I were told by teddy and reid to teach other about stuff(personal info)..Anyways they had to go to dinner and we went to il trem for dinner. On the way there, Steph and I were driving down wilshire when these two nasty mexican men were like staring at me and steph and we were like wtf..We had dinner and then we went to check out the harvard westlake party with yanik and this guy named joel...But by the time we got up there..it was cancelled so me steph joel and yanik went to look for another party but we couldnt find any..I had to pee again and Yanik asked, "Why do Milken girls always announce when they have to pee?" Its true because everytime I have been around him..I have always had to pee..So reid called stephanie's cell and wanted us to sleep over...we couldnt and we went to mel's diner @ like 11:35..Teddy reid and this other guy pulled up in this Mercedes G-wagon and we were laughing so hard..We only chilled for like 10 minutes but reid again was trying to hook up with steph..lol so steph took me home and the night was over...hahaha I HAVE ISSUES was the phrase of the night...lol I had such a blast..Then school came again and this week is stressful! But hopefully the weekend will b better..Semi formal is soon I bought my dress and shoes and Im excited

MUCH LOVE

its raining its pouring

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 04:47:21 GMT

Its raining outside now and that really suxs! It is so fucking cold..bbrrr!!!!!!!I swear I feel like im shrinking...hahaha anyways today was an interesting day...Town Meeting was so boring! Never ever do mock election speeches @ school. Someone looked really good today...Steph he looked so pretty I could cry :'(Do you want a homemade brownie...any takers(hahaha they are amazing!) free period was interesting...BY the way...Happy Birthday Ally! I loved Dora the explorer(jess she is really cute) ok...we were reliving some funny moments and still trying to decide who we were taking to semi formal or better if we were going...Maya and I were trying to figure out dates..(hmm any takers??) Ally Jess and I were making these funny ass phone calls to people from the past(hahaha u guys know who they are)Wow! Victoria- I loved talking to u 2day and I was so happy when you called because I miss you sooo much! Guess what??? @ least we are not the ones with STD's now...Nicole has them all...lol! I love you and cant wait until you come to la we are partying it up for sure...yeah! dont forget...we are each other's maid of honors @ the weddings...hey victoria-tell angelo to come out to la...that would b hillarious..xoxox miss u tonz and june will be here sooner than u know it!

confuzion and putting things into perspective

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 22:29:03 GMT

my friend once told me this story and i was putting things into perspective and I really agree with her on this so i thought i would share it with all of you:
" sometimes you can think about things and they really piss you off..well it doesnt neccessarily piss you off...it just annoys you..here it is: Ok so I think that this guy likes me or is into me right...you know hes really chill...but then like he says how pretty you are etc(probably to get play...lol haha) he used to call you every other day or talk to you on aim...interesting! But then like he starts to talk to you less and less...then you wonder...does he like me or doesnt he...Im so lost and confuzed(it kind makes me sad) I thought that I liked him to...but now I just dont know anymore...I dont feel pretty...But whats the point..Im not going to sit on my fat ass all day and wait for you to start calling me...so im going to live my life the way that I want and not worry about anything...the right person will come along"
I feel bad for my friend I just want everybody to be happy and have the best life possible because life is too short to worry about stupid shit

I love this song and wanted to put it on:enjoy!

Another turning point a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

Valentines Day

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 01:47:36 GMT

Valentines Day often finds you looking for love...if you have a boyfriend...its great because you get to be with someone that you care about..and if you dont have a boyfriend its usually depressing but it can also be fun! Last night was a really nice valentines....I loved going out to dinner and the long red rose...(its in a vase to keep it pretty)It was a really nice night and thanks for the amazing night...( u know who u are and it was great to finally chill with u...lol)

By the way...just because I went to the bathroom like 5 times doesnt mean im anorexic...lol
The cinnabun was so good except you ate like the whole thing when I was on my cell phone thanks! I stil want my 1/2 because i only got like two bites

general thoughts

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 05:51:13 GMT

have you ever wondered about the people who you love in life and what if anything ever happened to them...I dont know exactly what sparked my sadness now but I really miss my dad a lot. He died in October of 2003 from the complicated effects of a brain tumor. It is so weird for me to imagine that at 16 years old I would have to say goodbye to my dad and never be able to see him again. Life works in mysterious ways and I know he is no longer suffering but I do miss him very much. Dad's are supposed to be and watch you grow. I am thankful for the times that I did have my dad there to watch me grow. I am also very lucky to have such an amazing support group that consists of my family and my friends. Its so hard for me still to comprehend that my dad is really gone...like really gone. Sometimes people just get overwhelmed and filled with all different emotions. I also never thought fate would take my dad away from me...but fate intervened and he did take my dad away from me...I am very greatful because my mom has always supported me and been there for me through all of the events in my life....for that I will always be greatful for and you are truly such an amazing mother...I remember the day he died like it was yesterday. It was October 18th and I had just woken up...my grandma was taking care of me and she said your brother is on the phone... I was really confuzed because if anyone knows my brother well...he is never up before 12 pm. I clenched the phone and he had a somber tone to his voice. He said to me, " Molly, something happened to dad last night. He passed away in his sleep." I remember I fell to the floor and was in a state of shock. Then, I went into my bed and almost was frozen. I was overwhelmed the whole day and just was so sad. But here is one thing that I must look at...he was suffering and is now resting peacfully. Dad I will always love you with all of my heart and you are so special to me. With Valentines Day approaching, tell everyone in your life how much you love them,cherish them, and truly appreciate them. "life should be cherished because it too short to waist a moment..." I LOVE EVERYONE IN MY LIFE FROM MY AMAZING FAMILY TO MY AMAZING FRIENDS THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME

MUCH LOVE

PS Dad you were amazing father to me and I will also value our relationship and the love you had for me

interesting moments in my life(not really but I find them funny)

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 02:00:04 GMT

Okay...my moments in life may not be funny to others but they are funny to me...
One of the most awkward moments of the day was getting rated by the student lounge pannel of judges...The artist drew all over my hebrew book and signed his name...thanks for my stripe of green
Hands down the best moment of the day
"fuck me up the ass I hate math" the person who had this away message gets my praise math does suck
I loved talking to alexis in the bathroom during latin and getting welcomed back by Alexis and Ellie during kehillah thanks

I cant think but I really swear my life is entertaining I just cant think and reveal all of my moments

back to school

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 01:27:38 GMT

wow it was so weird going back to school today...after all, I hadnt been to school in two weeks. But it was really nice to see all of my friends and chill with them...Thanks guys for making me feel like I had never left! Well, I had a meeting to make a plan with all of my work..and I think I can complete the rest by the end of this week(which is really good!)Art class was so weird...I swear the teacher(who shall remain nameless) is a stoner...lol jk but the teacher certainly acts like one..Chemistry was interesting..It was fun hanging out with simi and dani...By the way in answer to leo- I havent tasted the magic stick(what the hell was he thinking...hes a dirty perv!) Simone and I went to get lunch and I bought a tostada..She took some one a separate plate because we cant share...lol u almost forgot! I loved lunch...you are one of my best friends..lol you really are...free period I did a lot of make-up chem work and other work I had to do...which was very beneficial. History was okay except for I dosed off for a couple of minutes and fell alseep! But then I woke up when somones cell phone went off and her face turned bright red! The teacher was like answer it must be important...you never know it beeped when there was a message and the teacher was like telling her to answer...I got home and started on my homework...Its a long road ahead but Im ready for the challenge!

feeling better

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 00:22:10 GMT

thanks to all of my friends who called me and tell me that they miss me...Im going back to school monday! I feel a lot better which is really good because Ive felt really shitty these past couple of weeks! Okay...so this weekend I plan to rest so I wont get more sick...Tomorrow I have to go to my SAT prep-class to make up a 3 hour test to take! woo hoo! And then Sunday, I have my first real SAT prep-class...holy shit! the SAT's are freaking me out because I want to do really well and the reality of applying to college is slowly coming...its so weird! I remember starting high school and junior year is 1/2 done...wow! Okay so thank you to all of my friends who have called me and told me they hope I feel better and that they miss me! Through out me being sick, you dont do very much! All I have really done is rested in my bed and havent left my house besides to go to the doctor! Thank god Im getting better so next weekend I can go out! So Im really happy that im getting better and will go out next weekend and have fun..>After all, Ive been sick and havent really left my house in over 2 weeks! Im glad im getting better and this will be a good weekend for me to finish getting better

**Don't take life too serious. You'll never escape it alive anyway."**
Im just trying to live life to the fullest and im glad im better and not that sick anymore

still sick update

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 22:18:51 GMT

okay...so being sick really I cant stress how much it sucks! I have been sick for over 2 weeks and thank god I am beginning to feel a whole lot better! Thanks to all of my friends who have called to tell me how much they love me and miss me @ school! Anyways, I have just been resting and trying to get myself well! Tomorrow I go again to the doctor(this is the 4th time I will have gone to the doctor but hes a jewish doctor!lol he wants the money! jk) Im sure its just to make sure that im getting better....I hope that by me resting this weekend...I will be better and can go back to school monday...miss you all

**MUCH LOVE**

PS..I dont know why but I love this quote a lot "Laughter is your tears turned inside out..." Its just special a little note...comment so that I will continue to get healthy again! Bye all

still sick

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 23:20:52 GMT

omg...I hate being sick...it is just really unfair...Im so miserable and uncomfortable...I cant eat because its hard for me to swallow solid foods...I went to the doctor and had to have tests done and shots given to me...how freaking pleasant!and I have lost a lot of weight...its just really annoying not to be well...hopefully i get better soon...leave a comment maybe that will make me feel better

being sick really sucks

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 21:12:44 GMT

Okay so being sick really sucks and I have risen from the dead(my bed)! I remembered O shit I have to update my journal...SO I have been sick for the past two days and went to the doctor yesterday I am on medications and hopefully I will be better for the weekend...I have barely gotten any sleep within the past two days! I couldn't sleep at all last night and didm't get to slepe until 4:18 am! Well, Im going back into my bed comment and tell me you love me and want me to get better xoxo **MWUAH**

this weekend

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 18:21:52 GMT

I have never been more thankful for a four day weekend in my life...I needed to sleep past 6:20 am!!!!! Friday I had for interview for Hess Kramer and got the job which I am sooo exited for. Then Emma and I went to get manicures and pedicures... Later that night we went out to dinner @ PF Changs and then went back to Melissa house... Saturday was kind of a stressful day...I was really sad and went to simone's. Me simone and leo went to target(unsuccessful mission) and then went to Cheescake factory. Leo knew someone that worked there so we cut the line of waiting people..and also told them it was my birthday(which it wasn't!) We sat between the two most annoying couples ever. One man told his date before he was going to the bathroom that he felt like he was going into labor...like he was pregnant or something(weird very weird) So they brought me an ice cream sundae and everyone started singing happy birthday to me...I was laughing so hard...Thanks for being there for me simone..I had a great night...because I was really sad that day Sunday I spent the day with my mom and we went to pacific palisades to have breakfast and go to the farmers market...It was a really nice day being with my mom because I just want to go somewhere with her and talk. That day I was sad because it has been 3 months...Dad I really miss you and hope you are @ peace now..I <3 you with all of my heart forever xoxo molly Today, I am being a lazy bum and sleeping because I dont feel well...so comment and tell me how much you love me

**MWUAH**

update

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 01:15:03 GMT

sorry I know it has been a while since I have updated...I have stressed with so much school and work in general. Chris leaves for Australia tomorrow and I really today realized how much I will miss you...My big bro will be gone for 6 months!! I will really miss you very much and I love you eee(lol) Friday im getting a manicure and pedicure with Emma and also I am preparing for KFC...lol thank god it is only a 4 day week of school this week...woo hooo! 2 days left to go I cant wait for the weekend!

the days festivities

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 16:51:10 GMT

Today is all about pampering and making myself feel really good..Im going to get a manicure and pedicure. Also, Im going to get my eyebrows done. Next, Im going shopping to pick up a birthday gift for charlotte and I can never count out a small gift for myeslf! Im going to come home and get dressed....My date for this evening...

Steph! lol Im coming with flowers

Thats all now folks...I will write another entry soon!

the hunt

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 17:19:40 GMT

Ok....so I really havent updated this journal since the wild festivities of new years and I decided since people say I never update that I would...

Dani...Andreas is somewhat coming out of his black hole because he called me yesterday and I am making sure that after he takes the SAT's we are going out with him it is manditory...Anyways, Supy u make me laugh because yesterday when I was talking to you, I stressed the importance of friday night at the Roxy(hint hint...someone swore that they could hook up with you @ camp...ACCESS DENIED little one ACCESS DENIED!) @ least I already beat her to that....lol Seriously I swear I really think that is one of the funniest things I have ever heard in my life...
Im on the hunt...lol brian definatly by Valentines day! We have to...I swear Im loosing my patience if I have to...I may have to call you my gf...lol jk thats funny
Im @ school now so I will update you later

DAY 1 of the hunt...a failure
Day 2 of the hunt-in progress....the day has only begun...(hahahaha brian)

New Years

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 01:38:14 GMT

Sorry I havent updated in a long time...Let me recap the crazy night of New Years eve I went over to Simones and started to get dressed. Rachel came over and all of us continued to get ready. Simone left to go get leo and didnt come back from like 45 minutes. We were hungry so we got in and out got leo ate the food @ Simones and then went to Drew's house...It was interesting. Rachel and I saw these 2 hot guys that were like amazing...So me leo simone and Rachel went outside for a minute and I accidentally burned my hair...lol We go back in and then we decided that we would try to get into Shaq's New Years Eve party. Security was really tight and Brittany had the idea that she could get in...of course we were denied. So we went back to Drew's house and Simone decided she wanted 2 continue the party at her house. Simone Rachel and Leo took shitloads of food from Drew's including a basket of chips and me brittany and david were waiting in David's car. They run out with all of the food and some of Drew's friends go to David's car and drive back to Drew's house(by the way, David you are a crazy driver!!) We all chilled at Simones had some propel...lol and chilled...It was a fun night...thanks Simone, Rachel, Brittany, Leo for the fun night! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2004 to all!

applesauce

Sat, 27 Dec 2003 06:49:13 GMT

All I want is applesauce.....

O wait! The applesauce has moldy shit in it...I cant eat it...

Kirsten-I <3 u

recap...of Hanukah

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 00:17:30 GMT

Sorry..its been such a long time since I have updated my live journal..ITS WINTER BREAK!!! Yes..I am so excited because its hanukah and we all know what that means...presents!!

1st night- Jelly Bag(those hermes berken bags)
green off the shoulder shirt

2nd night-off on hanukah (cant remember)oh yeah...simone got me this really cute shirt from abercrombie...thnx hun I <3 u that day simone leo and I went shopping at Topanga Plaza I bought the marc by marc jacobs pants to match my jacket and a white lacy tank top...so hot! Simone went nuts in forever 21 but I love the pancho! I will borrow it sometime soon! Simone...I really appreciate u being there for me

3rd night-intial shirt with "m" and cute green little bow(kirsten we can be twins now) sunglasses and an outkast cd

4th night-Big von dutch bag(Donna now i have the mommy and the baby of the bag) the maake-up bag with the intial m on it using it as a purse

Last night--I met Lindsay for yogurt @ humprhey's and the guy hooked us up with free yogurt and stamped a card for each of us 8 times...I went over to kirsten's after ang then came home

I SAW JOHN MAYER

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 03:44:37 GMT

While sitting in traffic on my way to pick on my mom I was really excited to see her...I waited for her at baggage claim and give her a big hug...But I look over to my right and who do I see???

JOHN MAYER...loooking sexxy as hell...omg hes so amzing It was a moving experience just seeing him...wow I will never forget that

It gets interesting

Wed, 17 Dec 2003 00:42:10 GMT

First off: I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE A SHOUT OUT TO THE TWO COOLEST GIRLS @ MILKEN BY FAR: Simi and Dani...lol heres the request...

Recap of my day:(lol dani i hope this is interesting enough for you)
Math as usual was boring and dani I thought u were going to make Raupi cry.
Latin-didnt do shit...except I had a really fun time alex discussing everything al-I <3 those chats lol
Jewish Law-(the highlight of my day) Melissa and I were thinking of any possible way to stall class and we did for little bit...david and all the guys were hillarious....
Lunch:Emma once agains gets mad @ Melissa and ends their friendship over not going with her to the lunch truck....Charlotte:If you give good masssages...I would make you my bf
Free Period- Tanya and Ally were hillarious...tanya will do anything to find out the latest gossip...***Keyword Tanya: MERCEDES****

Thats all...Dani I hope this somewhat meets your approval...

<3

not feeling good

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 01:04:41 GMT

There are times in one's life where you dont feel good...about yourself, your body, just generally feel good about you...I hate that you can go through a day and feel so alone....heres a song that I love soo much...I SWEAR my entries will become more interesting

It's about life, it's about fun
It's over before it has begun
It's about you, it's about me
It's about everything between and I say
I'm saying goodbye to you, I say hi to you with no clue
It's about time that I
Make up my mind

It's simple, confusing, the truth is I'm winning but I'm losing
And pulling and pushing, won't do me any good
It could, it should
I'm honest to myself that the truth is I lied

One of these days it all comes together
One of those days that goes on forever
Think I sound crazy? Maybe, whatever
What's it all about?

I feel cool...I finally have one of these live journals!!

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 19:04:12 GMT

Hey guys...I swore that I would never make one of these live journals things but I decided to make one to interest all...xoxo Molly